alangkah indahnya zaman kanak2. tak perlu fikir kerumitan permasalahan dunia. semakin besar, semakin banyak perkara yang perlu difikir dan diuruskan. otak pun semakin rumit. the complexities of human minds have very much contributed to the conflicts and issues around the world. if only men live, by the rules of God, life will be such a bliss.
i came across an entry by lj and it hit me hard. insaf sebentar. maybe God wants to teach me to be patient. maybe God wants me to wake up, learning life isn't a bed of roses. maybe God says im not yet ready. or simply God wants to tell me that it isn't the right one. and all i need to know is that He has written everything in order and that nothing could ever change it.
the feeling of being wooed for is indescribable. but i do not seem to like it. i hate the idea of getting texts around the clock just to report what i do. i hate the idea of ppl telling me things i knew and hinting it twice, thrice, bla bla.. i hate it when ppl gv compliments, when i know its not sincere.i hate it when ppl try to play God and lay out things i should or shouldn't do, even they themselves don't hv a clue.
or maybe they are just not the right ones?
i'm heartless. so i can't give back. reciprocal is not my vocabulary. because i got used to the idea of being alone, ignored, pushed and hushed away for so many years that i became insensitive, too.
suprisingly, i'm quite happy with my life now.
